age triumph

I figured that we get more relaxed as we grow older once we discover that there is a club for people with feelings we used to have when we were little, that we suppressed because we assumed they made us glide away from the mainstream, and hence hurt us. As we mature we find out that people have created recognized doctrines, clubs, established dogma for those characteristics that used to marginalize us; we are suddenly relieved and want to become official club MEMBERS. What used to be the marginalized sector then is the principal sector here. What a waste it has been to work at curbing those tendencies all through. All that training to suppress those feelings was a waste of time! Those who used to be the non-privileged then became the hip now. Imagine that at a high school class reunion you would observe the then popular students have turned into the marginalized women.. others, on the other hand learned how to play the game and upgraded their popularity assets. Imagine yourself watching and taking notes.. I discovered a new vocabulary where values of long acquired adjectives are changed to my advantage: I forgot what it was. I feel triumphant and happier.